December 26, 2019

Dudu's Diary - Chapter 17: Who She Used To Be

From the beginning till the end, she was never wanted.

Wu Jing: "!!!"

This is awesome! Was Yu Shanshan walking sideways in the Imperial Dance Academy? She actually chased somebody else, but in the end, he didn't want her!

Is it possible that this is the retribution for how many men she hurt in the first place?

She doesn't know why, but Wu Jing suddenly wanted to laugh. When she couldn't endure it any longer, she began to laugh wildly.

Yu Shanshan:.....This friend really can't endure it!



In the end, it was only when Yu Shanshan's face was already looking thunderous that Wu Jing reluctantly stopped laughing. For the sake of their already shaky friendship, Wu Jing smiled with a painful stomach and admitted that she was wrong, "I was wrong. I was wrong. I really stopped laughing. Don't be angry, don't be angry."

After joking, Wu Jing got serious and said, "I don't know if he truly likes you or not, but I know you gave birth to Dudu for him, so he can't turn his back on this responsibility. Dudu needs a father and needs to grow up in a healthy environment. What you need to do now is not to push him away, but to let him take on the responsibility as a father or maybe even as a husband."

Yu Shanshan knows this. She had matured and is no longer the naive little girl she was before. She had seen the reality of life. She knew that no matter what happened to her and Yuan Long, Dudu would not be willing to leave his father who finally came back. He really liked him very much. If he couldn't see his father, the little guy would be very sad.

She can't bear to see her child without a father.

But this is just her idea. She doesn't know what he thinks. He didn't even give her more than a glance  since he entered the door, and he probably doesn't want to talk to her as well.

In fact, she also understands.

If she had... let go already, what's the point of talking about it now?

Looking at Yu Shanshan's sullen appearance, Wu Jing comforted her, "You don't have to be so upset. Who knows, feelings can still be improved, as long as you're thick-skinned enough. Are you afraid of not being able to bear it? You were able to take him down before, you can still do it now."

Yu Shanshan is indignant, she pointed to her face and wants to cry without tears. "I used to weigh no more than a hundred pounds, but now I have tripled it. How can it be the same? How can I win?"

Wu Jing looked at her swollen fleshy face that looks like a steamed bread and thought it's indeed a little difficult, but she still encouraged her and said, "As long as you work hard, there is nothing you can't do. Even if you don't have beauty, then impress him with your charming personality!"

Having said that, Wu Jing withdrew very neatly without waiting for Yu Shanshan to think about her charming personality. "Well, if you have nothing else to day, I won't stay and disturb the three of you. I'll go first. Come on."

After Wu Jing left, Yu Shanshan was still thinking about her "charming personality" that could impress Yuan Long. She can't think of any.



When Wu Jing walked to the community square, she happened to see Yuan Long sitting on the edge of the flower bed, looking at the happy Dudu playing with the remote-controlled plane not far away.

Originally, only Wang Bofei had a remote-controlled plane in the neighborhood. Now that Dudu also has one, he naturally attracted the attention of all children.

Like how they watched Wang Bofei's toy earlier in the morning, the children surrounded Dudu as well and looked at the his plane admiringly.

"Dudu, did you buy a plane, too? Yours looks better than Wang Bofei's."

"Wow, Dudu, your mother is willing to buy you a plane. If only my mother is willing to buy it for me."

"Dudu, can you lend me your plane and I'll trade with you."

Dudu was so sad and lonely this morning but look how the serfs are singing now.

Dudu patted his round belly and smiled happily, and pointed to where Yuan Long is sitting to show everyone, "My father bought this for me since he's back!"

The eyes of every kid looked in the direction Dudu was pointing, and when they saw Yuan Long, they all "Wooow---" one after another

Yuen Long is tall, handsome and elegant, with a straight back and an unspeakable vitality written all over his body, which is different from that of an ordinary man.

Many children's dads wear big underpants at home, and some are even shirtless most of the time. Their common sitting posture is Ge You slouching and stretching his legs. Therefore, by contrast, it appears that the Dudu's dad is very different from their own dads.

The children couldn't pin point how, but they just felt that Dudu's father was bored with them. As a result, everyone shifted the topic from the plane to Dudu's father.

"Dudu, you really have a father. My grandmother said you don't have a father."

"Dudu, your father is so tall and looks so bored."

"Dudu, did your father hit you? Does it hurt that he hit someone?"

"Dudu, can your father lift you up? My father can."

Dudu took pains to answer the children's questions about his father one by one. He didn't feel bored at all and asked them not to grab him one by one.

Not to mention he has an energetic appearance.

Yuan Long was watching and listening from a distance. His eyes were tender like never before.

Wu Jing also saw his tenderness and deep love for Dudu in Yuan Long's eyes. After thinking about it, she walked over.

"Mr. Yuan, can we talk?"

Yuan Long nodded, "As you say."

Wu Jing sat down next to him and also looked at Dudu not far away. She said after a while, "I don't know much about you and Shanshan, and I won't ask any more questions regarding your relationship. But I've watched over Shanshan every step of the way while you absent. She had suffered a lot over the years."

Yuan Long clasped hands and listened quietly.

Wu Jing continued: "When Shanshan became pregnant she was already in her senior year and she couldn't cover up her stomach. She had no choice and was forced to drop out. She didn't even get her diploma from the country's best dance school. Do you know, during that time the school was already planning to send her abroad to study"

Wu Jing smiled, but her smile was a little faint. "You may not know what this school represents to dancers like us, but what I can tell you is that Shanshan gave up her entire future just to give birth to Dudu."

Wu Jing didn't look at Yuan Long's face at the moment. She just wanted the man to know the sacrifice the woman had made.

"You should know how beautiful she used to be. At that time, she was the most beautiful girl in our school. Even the beauty of the drama school next door was far inferior compared to her. Every day, many handsome boys from the drama school came to see her and many admirers pursued her."

Yuan Long still did not speak, but he remembered the day he sent his sister to start school, that was when he met her for the first time at the Imperial Dance Academy.

During that moment, she was receiving a confession.

The boy was very handsome, holding a large bouquet of roses in his hand and there was a sea of flowers placed behind him. He knelt down on one knee and asked her to be his girlfriend in front of the whole school.

There were a lot of onlookers and everyone was booing and saying, "Answer him! Answer him!"

Even his sister thought that the two were a perfect match.

It seems that such a good show of talent and beauty is often staged on campus. At that time, he thought that the girl would take advantage of the opportunity to agree, but the next second was very unexpected, but the girl refused without hesitation.

The boy probably didn't think he would be rejected so easily. His face flushed with shame and asked reluctantly, "Why? What's wrong with me?"

Due to some unknown psychology, it was the first time that Yuan Long had paid attention to something that had nothing to do with himself.

When he heard the him ask, he was thinking that the girl was going to say something like, "You're fine, but we're not suitable." But once again, the girl surprised him as she replied, "You don't meet my criteria for choosing a boyfriend."

The boy is probably the most handsome boy in the school. He is very confident about his appearance, but now he is told by the girl he likes that his appearance is not good enough. This is undoubtedly a huge blow to him, so he can't accept it. So he asked again,"Are you trying to fool me? My appearance doesn't meet your criteria? So what do you want? You show me!"

The girl actually began searching the crowd, seemingly looking for a suitable candidate for this boy's reference, and said, "First of all, your height does not meet my requirements. My boyfriend should be at least 1.85 meters tall, just like ..."

At this time, the girl happened to see him in the crowd. Her eyes lit up immediately, and she pointed at him. She then said without hesitation, "He must be as tall as him, as handsome as him, a man just like him."

As a result, everyone's attention was drawn to Yuan Long, and the one who confessed walked away full of grief and indignation.

Then, she ran up and asked for his phone number.

It's just that at that time he ignored her and just left.

When Yuan Long recovered from his memories, he heard Wu Jing ask, "Do you know how she drastically changed from that arrogant beautiful girl to her present obese image?"

Yuan Long's eyes deepened. This time, his heart was hit hard.

He couldn't help but remember what she used to look like.

Once she was so proud, so proud of her beauty that even if she goes out, she has to carefully pick her clothes in the closet for a long time. She said that she would be a little fairy all her life and would never allow herself to become ugly.

How can such a person who loves beauty allow herself to become what she is now?

What did she experience?

Yuan Long asked, "What happened to her?"

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翻身农奴把歌唱 'The Song of the Emancipated Serfs' - A song about gratitude by local Tibet people to China from feudal political oppression. Not sure if this was a forced propaganda or what.

This is the Ge You slouch meme which became popular in China back in 2016. It's a screenshot of a 1990s sitcom “I Love My Family,” where Ge You's guest character was a freeloading scammer who was glued to the couch apart from getting up to eat meals.



Monique: New Year is fast approaching! I have so many plans. And that includes a couple of new year's resolutions:

- First is that I'm planning to look for a new job soon, hopefully 2020 can be kinder to me than 2019. 
- I'm also currently studying Chinese characters. It's super hard. Once I'm OK with them, maybe I could begin to move on to the next step? I'm not yet confident.
- Finish Dudu's Diary and maybe pick up a new novel. 

Which reminds me, I do have that BL (Please check it out but please don't link to NU because I'm not confident with the quality), but it's too difficult for me right now so it's not going to be the main priority.